Without You

Without You : A Memoir of Love, Loss, and the Musical "Rent"

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Anthony Rapp's first audition for the workshop production of Rent begins a journey that takes him all the way to Broadway as the star of the Tony and Pulitzer Prize-winning musical, experiencing tragedy, loss, and enlightenment along the way. When Rent's brilliant young creator, Jonathan Larson, dies suddenly of an aneurysm the night before the show's first performance, Anthony and the rest of the cast are devastated and open the show that night only to friends and family, performing a tribute to their dear friend and gifted artist. Shortly thereafter, Anthony's mom receives a devastating cancer diagnosis and during the Anthony's first year on Broadway as Mark in Rent, he makes frequent trips to visit her, hoping for her to come to terms with his being gay, as he comes to terms with her impending death. With atmospheric, nostalgic flashbacks to his childhood in small-town Joliet, Illinois, he shares his first experiences discovering his sexuality, the tension it created with his mother, and his struggle into adulthood to gain her acceptance. This is a beautiful, haunting memoir of the world of theatre, the love of son for his mother, sexual awakening, and maturity won at far too early an age.show more

Product details

  • Paperback | 320 pages
  • 139.7 x 210.82 x 22.86mm | 317.51g
  • New York, United States
  • English
  • 0743269772
  • 9780743269773
  • 166,923

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"Beautifully written...[Without You] shows that a life story truthfully told can be stranger (as well as more touching) than fiction." -- William Georgiades, New York Post "No roar-of-the-crowd, smell-of-the-greasepaint scrapbook; it's a sprawling, tear-streaked life story and unabashedly sentimental ode to his mother...[Rapp's] voice is unpretentious and unfailingly honest." -- Melissa Rose Bernardo, Entertainment Weekly "The tragic, compelling back story to Rent extends the book's appeal far beyond the show's fans." -- Web Behrens, Chicago Tribune "Pitch-perfect...a book for anyone who has experienced great loss, [and] for anyone who has survived and grown because of that loss." -- David Weigand, San Francisco Chronicle "A memoir roiling with personal revelation and uncensored emotion." -- Christine Dolen, The Miami Heraldshow more

About Anthony Rapp

Anthony Rapp has been acting professionally since he was nine years old. He's best known for originating the role of Mark Cohen in Jonathan Larson's Pulitzer Prize-winning landmark rock opera Rent, taking the show from off Broadway to Broadway, Chicago, and London. He shared an OBIE Award with the rest of the original cast for his performance. He has appeared in numerous films, including Adventures in Babysitting, Dazed and Confused, the Oscar-winning A Beautiful Mind, and, most recently, the film adaptation of Rent. In 2000, he released his debut album, Look Around. He lives in New York City with his partner, Rodney To, and their three cats, Emma, Sebastian, and Spike. This is his first book.show more

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4,514 ratings
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Even if you've never seen or heard the slightest bit of any form of the musical RENT this novel is still interesting, relevant, hilarious and fabulous! It is an essential for any RENThead even if you've never seen the OBC or the 2005 movie. it details the birth of rent up until just before the 2005 movie was released. Even the bits that aren't about RENT are fabulous! This is the only book that has ever made me cry and in many ways Anthony Rapp's experiences are similar to my own. Especially his experiences with family and romances. This book will hit your emotions like a ton of bricks - it really is fabulous! Definitely get it he's surprisingly completely honest - talking about experiences that most would never mention in their autobiography. Its a wonderful wonderful book!show more
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