Adultery. Somehow, the word thrilled me. I felt like a naughty little girl, bad, wicked. And, heightening my wickedness, my husband Alan was watching me. Was his heart breaking? Was he wallowing in self-pity? Revenge is sweet. Revenge is deliberate adultery. It must be hitting him hard. To watch his wife of ten years, being crudely taken by another man ... How did he feel? What were his thoughts? He'd played his mind games and lost. There could be no winner.
Alan has walked out on Helen again. But this time she won't take her husband back. Thirty years old, attractive, with no shortage of admirers pursuing her, Helen begins to enjoy her freedom. But Alan won't leave her in peace. When she discovers him spying on her while she has sex with a male friend, she's initially shocked. But soon acknowledges that his voyeurism and her exhibitionism is acutely arousing.
Taking things further in order to shock and punish Alan, Helen begins to experiment and explore the extremes of her own fantasies. As she indulges in lesbian trysts, group sex, bondage and spanking, Helen also struggles to understand whether she wants to be rid of Alan or to continue enjoying his surveillance. And so together, they travel the unmapped road to depravation.show more