Psycho Inside Me
I killed my first victim at thirteen years old - my age, not his. He was going to rape me, him and a couple of his friends. And so, I killed him. And then... I killed again. And again. At seventeen, I'm killing four to six times a year - maybe more. Don't stress out. I only go after the pedophiles and rapists. There are more out there than I could cover in a lifetime. Saying I did this on my own would be selfish. Enforcing justice holds a glory all its own. But now, my lifelong friend and backup, Deegan, has been arrested. I have to decide if I want to give myself up and take his place or leave him with all the damning evidence. I don't want to stop killing. But if I let him take the fall, I can't kill anymore. And I need to keep doing that. But the worst part of it all? I love him.
- Paperback | 264 pages
- 127 x 203 x 14mm | 263g
- 25 Nov 2013
- Createspace Independent Publishing Platform
- Illustrations, black and white
About Bonnie R Paulson
Bonnie R. Paulson mixes her science and medical background with reality and possibilities to make even myths seem likely and give every story the genetic strength to survive. Bonnie has discovered a dark and twisty turn in her writing that she hopes you enjoy as much as she has enjoyed uncovering it. Dirt biking with her family in the Northwest keeps her sane.
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Have you read that blurb? Now tell me you don't want to read this. You can't? That's what I thought. "Killing someone didn't happen every day. At least not for normal people." Ever since I have read that blurb I have been dying to read it. I had a high hopes for this book and I'm happy to say that it totally lived up to my expectations. I have always enjoyed reading thought-proving books that make me rethink my beliefs and values. What I value the most is a human life. I believe that there is no excuse for a murder, but this book showed me things in life are not always white and black and sometimes it is really hard to distinguish between good and evil, right and wrong. Cassie was just an ordinary preacher's daughter until one day she was almost raped by a local douche-bag. That event changed her life forever. She wasn't the same girl anymore. That also was a start of her unusual relationship with Deegan, her partner in a crime-literally. During the year they were avoiding each other like a plague, only seeing one another nightly when they were running together. But at the anniversary of their first kill, Deegan was always there to help Cassie get out of the trouble since she wasn't able to stop herself from killing again. For every victim they got a new tattoo, that was their little tradition I found actually really cute. Yes, this book did something to me I cannot explain. AM I PSYCHO FOR LIKING THIS SO MUCH? I think I don't wanna know an answer to that question, but maybe there is a psycho inside everyone that certain triggers might bring to life. That is my new theory. I believe everyone is capable of doing well and bad things and I really don't think anyone can judge other people for things they did, based on their limited beliefs about life. It's easy to be judgmental when those horrible things are not happening to you. Put yourself in their shoes. What would you do if someone has raped or almost raped you? Cassie chose to take the law into her own hands since she was aware rapists and pedophiles somehow didn't get the real punishment. The justice is slow. What made me really sick was the fact that some of her victims were respected citizens, like that cop or sexual abuse therapist. What to do when something bad has happened to you and law couldn't protect you? What if your own family didn't believe your story? How to trust anyone at all? I think the turning point for Cassie was when she experienced the feeling of relief of her friend Kari after she had found out about the death of her uncle pedophile. Suddenly she realized that her mission really helps the innocent victims and that only reinforced her decision to continue with the killing. Another great thing in this book was an unique love story that stole my heart. Cassie and Deegan may not be a poster child for mental health, but I loved their twisted relationship. Overall, this book is not for sensitive people, but if you enjoy reading suspenseful, thought-provoking stories with little romance to spice i up, I highly recommend reading this book. You can thank me later. :Dshow moreby Barbara Kužić
Doesn't the synopsis just beg you to read the book? I know it did for me. I haven't read of many thirteen year olds who can say the've killed before. Cassie is a preacher's daughter, who is subjected to almost getting raped. It's this moment in her lie that changes everything including herself. She's no longer the sam person, and you can't blame her. Deegan, an old friend, now becomes her friend, and her partner in crime as they kill people. Of course, there's a lot of drama between the two of them, and they have a very complicated relationship. Together they make up an awesome book. You have to pick it up and try it! I of course give it 5/5!show moreby elizabeth barbarick