Living Age Volume 187

Living Age Volume 187

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This historic book may have numerous typos and missing text. Purchasers can usually download a free scanned copy of the original book (without typos) from the publisher. Not indexed. Not illustrated. 1890 edition. Excerpt: so dangerous and acts at times in so peculiar a manner. If one's soul is elevated too far--how am I to express myself?--if one's soul passes out of one's reach, one has to get along without it until it comes down again. "On that particular morning it was bright and sunny. I felt light, but prescient; I knew that the Italian would come again, and that something would happen. I want you to see that I was not entirely myself even before the Italian came. New feelings, new qualities suddenly declared themselves within me. What was I experiencing? Dyspepsia? I cannot say. The Italian came at eleven o'clock I hated him--hated his black hair ana coarse face--hated the mechanical piano with the green baize covering--hated the immoral monkey which sat on the top. 1 would not let them see that i hated them. I was too proud for that, but my heart swelled. It was very painful, but I kept quiet. I was determined to be perfectly natural; so I went to the sideboard and drank a glass of vodka. Then I lit a cigarette; I thought that it would deaden the feeling. I said to my soul: 'Soul, don't move. Stop where you are. Refuse to be elevated.' Yet I must confess that directly he began to play ' See-saw' I felt my control over myself lapsing from me. I went to the window and looked at the Italian. I can see him now--a man in robust health, well nourished, with horrible red lips, turning a handle. Do you know 'See-saw'? They always play it at the circus when the two performing dogs are fooling about at opposite ends of a plank. Every bar sends the soul up with a jerk; you will not believe me, but there is a point at which one positively wishes the music to stop. With me, that point was reached very soon. I flung open the window and said distinctly: ...
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  • Paperback | 658 pages
  • 189 x 246 x 34mm | 1,157g
  • United States
  • English
  • black & white illustrations
  • 1236841204
  • 9781236841209