If You Could Be Mine

If You Could Be Mine

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Winner of the Lambda Literary Award for LGBT Children's/Young Adult One of" Rolling Stone"'s 40 Best YA Novels A 2014 ALA Rainbow List Top 10 Title A "Booklist "Top 10 First Novels for Youth 2013 A Chicago Public Library "Best of the Best" 2013 In this stunning debut, a young Iranian American writer pulls back the curtain on one of the most hidden corners of a much-talked-about culture. Seventeen-year-old Sahar has been in love with her best friend, Nasrin, since they were six. They've shared stolen kisses and romantic promises. But Iran is a dangerous place for two girls in love--Sahar and Nasrin could be beaten, imprisoned, even executed if their relationship came to light. So they carry on in secret--until Nasrin's parents announce that they've arranged for her marriage. Nasrin tries to persuade Sahar that they can go on as they had before, only now with new comforts provided by the decent, well-to-do doctor Nasrin will marry. But Sahar dreams of loving Nasrin exclusively--and openly. Then Sahar discovers what seems like the perfect solution. In Iran, homosexuality may be a crime, but to be a man trapped in a woman's body is seen as nature's mistake, and sex reassignment is legal and accessible. As a man, Sahar could be the one to marry Nasrin. Sahar will never be able to love the one she wants in the body she wants to be loved in without risking her life. Is saving her love worth sacrificing her true self?
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Product details

  • 12-17
  • Hardback | 248 pages
  • 135 x 180 x 23mm | 318g
  • United States
  • English
  • 1616202513
  • 9781616202514
  • 769,247

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2 8% (752)
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Okaaayy... First, I'll be admitting something to you all. I honestly did not think that I would - eventually - read this one. Yes, I did request it at NetGalley. I do admit that it is more like a whim. I didn't read the book blurb for this story. I had ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA what it was before I click that REQUEST button. And I was shocked to find out that it is a LESBIAN book. You have to know, I do not have any thing against gays or lesbians. I like them as is. I am actually a fan of gay guys. By that, I meant the gays who doesn't have the need to dress up like a girl. More like they just unfortunately in love with a member of same sex. I love my gays to be dressed up still as a man. I read YAOI mangas (boys love comics) and I absolutely love them. As much as I love my boys love comics, I do not read novels about them. AND I do not ever read Girls' love, lesbian for most, YURI for manga lovers. I did read one time a yuri novel but that's it. I am not against but I don't know... Anyway, that was why I thought I would just mark this book as "DID NOT FINISH"... Enough of the prologue. :P One thing I liked about this book was that the girls, Sahar and Nasrin, didn't see the need to dress up as a man. I mean, I know it is Iran, Middle East countries are SO STRICT with their laws. So it is really not possible to dress up as a man. What I meant was that they still enjoy things women enjoyed. They are just girls who simply fell in love with each other. I, for one, is not against it. It happens. I saw it happen in my own two eyes with some of my friends. I accept them as they are. But of course, Iran, being strict and all, didn't see it that way. They are against same gender love. They execute them as a punishment. It's illegal. Showing your skin in public (if you are a girl) is so illegal in Middle East. Touching a girl that is not your relative (if you are a boy) will result to punishment. Even watching movies with girls exposing their body parts are bad. There are a lot of rules that should be followed or it will lead to something terrible. So Sahar and Nasrin are always hiding what they are and do. They can't let people see them kissing, loving one another... I believe that Sahar is more in love than Nasrin. She is willing to do anything, ANYTHING to be with Nasrin. Even going through a surgery to be a man. Nasrin is the bitchy, spoiled princess. Yeah, she love Sahar in her own wicked ways but I think that she mostly took Sahar for granted. She always thought that they'll be together forever even if she marry someone. That they could continue doing whatever it is they are doing together. But for Sahar, she wanted to run away with Nasrin. She wanted to marry the girl, hence, she's willing to undergo a surgery. :/ And I actually don't want her to do it. I think that it is not worth it. She love Nasrin but for me it is not worth it. I am so glad for Ali, Sahar's gay cousin, for being there for her all the time. He is my favorite character in here even if he doesn't get that much of exposure. He is honest with what he is. He might flaunt it excessively even in public (and remember that it is AGAINST THEIR LAW) but I like him just the way he is. Overall, I think the ending is just right for both Sahar and Nasrin. It is better for them that way. But somehow I sometimes wish that Sahar just choose the other alternative offered by her cousin, Ali. Still, the ending is quite right for all of them. Surprisingly, it's a good read. Although some parts are a bit annoying but I did got some knowledge of how Iran is and how hard it is for some of their people (especially for gays and lesbians) to express themselves.show more
by Alexis Marquez
I liked the culture and the message of this one. Sahar is a teen trying to be who she is under heavy government oppression. Sahar loves Nasrin and this is not allowed, so they are best friends and keep their love under wraps until a husband is chosen for Nasrin, and Sahar realizes that she doesn't want to be separated from her. She is close with her cousin Ali, who is gay and throws wild parties, and at one she meets Parveen who had sex reassignment surgery because this is allowed. This gets Sahar thinking that this could be her ticket to being with the girl she loves, Nasrin once and for all. Sahar is smart, protective, hard working, and caring. She takes care of her dad, and she thinks and sees the best in others. She lost her mom, and her dad goes into deep depression and I totally felt and respected how Sahar loved and wanted to care for him. It came off really sincere as well how much she loved her mom and would say she could sense her presence or what she would have thought about something. This helped to add some additional emotional depth to the story! While I liked Nasrin because I saw her through Sahar's eyes, I still didn't completely feel their love. I think that is because it was an established relationship and maybe the spark was assumed. While I appreciate greatly that it wasn't a case of insta-love especially since it is in a culture where this isn't allowed, and Sahar is considering such life altering measure in order to make it work. I like that they had the easy camaraderie, and even though there obviously was some chemistry, I just wish I could have experiences some flashbacks, or something in order to really experience that spark and make me more emotional invested. I feel like Sahar was too hard on Nasrin to love her as much as she did. Oh, and I know this is probably just an ARC (advanced reader copy) issue, but there was some distracting formatting issues such as double ff's being omitted, and the first sentence of every chapter had pieces missing. It is really neat to be immersed in a culture that is not mine, and yet not making myself feel dumb because I don't get the cultural differences. They are presented by showing me the norm, and even though I know it wouldn't be part of normal thought to explain what the Iranian words are, Ms. Farizan (the author) makes it natural. The ending... I liked it but I didn't. It was very realistic, but I wanted it to somehow be more fantasy and more of an HEA than I got. But it took guts to write it like that, and I think that it gives hope for the future.show more
by Brandi Kosiner (Brandi Breathes Books)
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