Denial, Deceit, Discovery

Denial, Deceit, Discovery

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Denial, Deceit, Discovery is the heart-rending story based on true events in the life of Jack Ellis; a young Catholic man deep in denial of his own homosexuality. It tells the story of how his own denial and the denial of his loved ones forced him to conform to the straight world, resulting in his marriage to his high school sweetheart. After years of cruising gay porn sites, chatting online with endless guys and intimate encounters with close friends, Jack was pulled into a life of deceit with a string of sexual partners. The story explains the pain and suffering of those around him as his secrets unfold and honesty rises up. The torture endured as Jack struggles to piece together the complex story of his own sexuality is truly moving. Escaping the shame, Jack flees to Bangkok with his gay lover where a much greater world of deceit and discovery awaits them both.
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Product details

  • Paperback | 364 pages
  • 126 x 198 x 30mm | 389g
  • York, United Kingdom
  • English
  • 0957640307
  • 9780957640306
  • 1,984,055

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54 ratings
4.01 out of 5 stars
5 48% (26)
4 20% (11)
3 19% (10)
2 11% (6)
1 2% (1)

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Someone recommended this book, “Denial, Deceit, Discovery” to me and I admit at first I was a little hesitant because I don’t normally read about the coming out stories of gay men. But holy moly am I glad I opened my mind and took a chance! This book was GREAT! I didn’t want to put it down, it read like a soap opera at times. And verrry sexy! (This is definitely a book for adults only). There are pretty graphic descriptions of sex as part of the story and the discovery of his sexual identity. This book sheds light not only on the turmoil of being a closeted gay man in denial, but how society’s expectations and the standard norms can cause more harm than good. I hope this book serves as an eye opener that people are created different and everyone should be free to love who they want to. Emotional, funny, and touching, I recommend this book for any adult who enjoys a compelling more
by MaxxxBaby
I am so happy to have discovered such a talented new writer in J James! I was so enraptured by his words and descriptions, I found myself, a middle age mother of two, feeling like it was me having the identity crisis and struggling to come out as a gay man. Mr. James�???�??�?�¢??s characters while not perfect are very relatable and sympathetic, even while flawed. Jack is very human, even if he was confused. His struggle and ultimate triumph was heartwarming, and I really loved the ending. I hope it is still true today! This is a great book, and one I hope a lot of people will read with an open mindshow more
by AprilDawn
I'm not normally one to be pleasantly surprised by books, sadly I’m usually more disappointed by a promising thesis and a lackluster delivery. This book surprised me more than any other in recent memory. I do enjoy reading of different facets of human life that I’m not familiar with, and although I have gay friends, I am straight. And even though we are friends, we never really delved into the whole ‘coming out’ processes or what the transition was like (if there was one). So it was enlightening to see someone go through that process, and not only have to deal with the fallout of his own life, but also dal with the effects his actions and decisions would have on his wife. I will give this book 5 stars because it was very well written, had well-developed characters and a tantalizing plot, and will be memorable for some time. However, if I had one critique it would have been for it to actually be longer as some parts felt a bit rushed and I would have liked to see some events and circumstances played out in a bit more detail. But all in all an impressive more
by BookPrincessSophia
Firstly, I loved how candid and honest this book was. So often I read novels based on real life experiences and you can tell the author has sort of �??�?�¢??sanitized�??�?�¢?? himself or propped himself up. Not here. We see the Main character Jack, warts and all. He never professes to be perfect and makes plenty of bad choices and mistakes along the way. But that is the story of life, and hopefully we learn and grow. It was fascinating (and addicting!) to watch Jack grow and learn from his mistakes and experiences and see where each step took him on his journey of self-exploration and ultimate �??�?�¢??discovery�??�?�¢??. This is one of the more �??�?�¢??authentic�??�?�¢?? feeling books I�??�?�¢??ve come across in a while, and I�??�?�¢??m happy to recommend it to others. The writing is terrific and so is the more
by Sam
Wow, to me this book was so sad! Sad that the character had to go through so much greif and drama and dishonesty before he could live his true life. Because when people can�?�¢â?¬â?¢t be who they are supposed to be, people get hurt, like in this book. Our society is getting much better, I think, but we still have a long way to go so that people don�?�¢â?¬â?¢t feel like they have to be straight and married to be �?�¢â?¬�?normal�?�¢â?¬�?. I�?�¢â?¬â?¢m happy that the author shared his experiences with everyone and I hope that gay and straight people read it and can appreciate that not everyone is the same. The lies and being forced to live them is what is bad. The truth is the best. Thank you Mr. more
by Anabella
"Denial Deceit & Discoveryâ?? by J James should be in the bookstores across America so everyone can read it if they wanted to. I think books like this are important, especially if it can help someone come to terms with who they are. The book is broken into three parts (Denial, Deceit, Discovery) and each section focuses on a transitioning time in Jackâ??s life and what his circumstances were. He is an easy character to get inside his head, and the writing was very descriptive. Maybe a bit too descriptive at times for my tastes. Sometimes I thought the book focused too much on sex and not enough on the emotions of the relationships. For someone who you would think would be a huge role in his life, the wife felt almost nonexistent. And I couldnâ??t help but wonder about any other family members or how about Jackâ??s other friends, how did they take the news (other than parents). But this is a very good book and one that should be more
by JT
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